Never Ever.

February 21, 2011

beach daddy

I’d always assumed that I’d have to call an ambulance at some stage.

I thought it might happen for one of the girls if they had a particularly bad asthma attack. Perhaps for a snake bite? Or more likely if my husband had an argument with a power tool.

I never, not even with my over worrying brain, ever thought I’d have to call an ambulance and utter these words… “I think my husband is having a heart attack.”

A heart attack was not on my list of ‘things I’ll probably call the ambulance for one day’…. except that’s exactly what I said into the phone last Wednesday afternoon.

I arrived home from school pick up to find my fit, healthy, non-drinking, non-smoking, ride a bike up the mountain no problems, 37 year old husband on the floor, ashen faced, gasping for breath and complaining of chest pain.
I waited what felt like an eternity for the ambulance to arrive.
I watched as the ambulance drive down our driveway with my husband in the back, while I threw kids in the car and made a phone call that no mother ever wants to receive.
I waited forever in the ER department and then waited some more and couldn’t decide if that was a good thing or a bad thing.
I took my four children into a very scary resus room to reassure them that their father was going to be ok, despite the fact that I had no idea if I was lying or telling the truth.

Sitting here, looking back it all seems to surreal… yet it is real.

My husband is in hospital with an as yet undiagnosed heart condition that caused his heart to beat way way too fast. It seems he has not had a heart attack as they first thought (which is good), and he is much much better than he was, but they don’t know why his heart is not working correctly. They are doing tests and looking for reasons even more scary than a heart attack.

I refuse to even contemplate life without him, so instead I am busy juggling normal life and hospital visits, talking to much, making jokes at inappropriate moments, playing plants vs zombies and spoiling my children. Anything to distract myself from what could have been, and especially what might be.

So forgive me if I don’t answer your email or if I tweet overly inane and boring things or update my facebook profile with more comments about baby vomit… I’m working on a new normal and hopefully we’ll get there soon.

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life in a pink fibro February 21, 2011 at 2:21 pm

Oh no. How scary Kate. Have everything crossed that all goes well.

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Fiona February 21, 2011 at 2:22 pm

oh hun.

thinking of you guys. take care xox

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Beet February 21, 2011 at 2:24 pm

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I hope they figure it out soon hon and that’s it’s not nearly as scary as anything you have imagined.

huge hugs.

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BabyMacBeth February 21, 2011 at 2:24 pm

Oh no! Hope everything turns out OK….thinking of you.

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Tina ~ tina gray dot me February 21, 2011 at 2:25 pm

Oh, Kate! How scary for you all. Thinking of you and hoping everything is ok! xx

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Susan @ Reading Upside Down February 21, 2011 at 2:25 pm

How scary for you all. Praying that the doctors quickly find a treatable cause for your husband’s heart problems. ((Hugs)) to you and your children.

PS Plants vs Zombies excellent for stress relief. Do you have a Wii Fit Plus? I find throwing snowballs at people on that is another excellent way to reduce stress levels.

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Zoey @ Good Goog February 21, 2011 at 2:25 pm

I’m so sorry Kate. What a scary thing to be going through. I’ll be sending you all my best wishes and positive thoughts.

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Kate February 21, 2011 at 2:28 pm

All our love to you Kate. I’m so so sorry you guys are dealing with this. xox.

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Jayne February 21, 2011 at 2:28 pm

(((hugs)))
Hope they get your husband sorted and back on his feet asap xxx

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Megan at Writing Out Loud February 21, 2011 at 2:32 pm

Oh, Kate. I hope everything is figured out soon and he’s up and about with you in no time.

Thinking of you. xx

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nic February 21, 2011 at 2:33 pm

Lots of hugs to you kate xxx

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Veronica February 21, 2011 at 2:35 pm

Oh gosh, so freaking scary! I am glad he is doing better and that it wasn’t a heart attack, but having your heart beat way too fast isn’t good. Hopefully tests will show something entirely fixable.

If you need anything that I can help with, please don’t hesitate to ask.

xxx

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Tammy February 21, 2011 at 2:36 pm

OMGoodness Kate. My heart goes out to you ( hopefully not a bad choice of words, said with nothing but good intent ) I can not imagine how Scary that must have been and do hope that they get to the bottom of what you are dealing with here soon. Much love.

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Me 'N my Monkeys February 21, 2011 at 2:38 pm

Ohh, How Scary that must have been. Hope he gets better soon! ((Hugs))

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Sarah February 21, 2011 at 2:41 pm

Oh Kate, scary stuff. Sounds like you’re all grace under fire. Thinking of you and I hope he has a quick, full recovery, and that the doctors find out ‘why’ very soon.

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Sarah February 21, 2011 at 2:42 pm

That is so horrible and scary. And a situation you shouldnt have to face.
Hang in there. And just keep putting one foot in front of the other for the moment.
My fingers are crossed that your husband will be back home with you soon.

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juniper February 21, 2011 at 2:46 pm

Oh my gosh Kate, how scary! All my love to you guys as they work out what is going on. ((Hugs))!!!

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Kellie February 21, 2011 at 2:48 pm

Thinking of you, Kate!

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Sif February 21, 2011 at 2:49 pm

HUGE HUGS!!! That is so scary! I hope it is something they can do something about!

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Cass February 21, 2011 at 2:54 pm

Praying for you all Kate xox

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annette February 21, 2011 at 3:02 pm

Oh my goodness!!!! How scary, I hope everything goes well and they quickly find out what it is….

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Tenille @ Help!Mum February 21, 2011 at 3:03 pm

Heart things are scary (hearts are a weakness in my family); those phone calls aren’t fun at all. I’m glad you’re holding up OK, and I hope that everything works out just fine.

I know that I hate it when people say “oh that happened to such and such and this is what happened..”, but…

A similar thing happened to my uncle while he was at the gym. They sent him to Sydney and put him through stress-tests and all of those fun things, and in the end, he’s being treated with medication, and is absolutely perfectly fine now.

I hope that it works out that way for your husband too. Take care xox

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Shae February 21, 2011 at 3:07 pm

So much love xoxo

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Super Sarah February 21, 2011 at 3:30 pm

Oh my goodness, what an awful thing to have to deal with, fingers crossed your husband is going to be fine and you will be back to dealing with the mundanities of daily life as soon as possible! xxx

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Kylie February 21, 2011 at 3:49 pm

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Kate xo

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Pixie February 21, 2011 at 4:13 pm

oh sweetie,
Im so sorry.I am glad you got him help so quickly.

hoping it isnt anything nasty.

hugs

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Katy February 21, 2011 at 4:20 pm

Oh Kate, I’m so sorry! I hope they can find out the cause of the pain soon, and that he is on the path to recovery.

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Kate February 21, 2011 at 4:29 pm

Eek, hope they find a simple reason and fix it soon. xx

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Marita February 21, 2011 at 4:50 pm

Oh Kate! I’m so sorry this is happening to your family. Prayers and positive vibes for you all.

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Louisa February 21, 2011 at 4:50 pm

oh kate. how awful and terrifying. hoping and praying everything turns out ok and you know what the deal is soon.

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Nee February 21, 2011 at 4:51 pm

This is scarily close to home for me, I remember being in the exact situation with Mark. I am sending you all my love. xoxo

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Tricia February 21, 2011 at 5:05 pm

Oh No! Sending you lots of positive energy. Thinking of you and your family. Tricia xx

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Brenda February 21, 2011 at 5:18 pm

Sending you hugs and wishing a speedy recovery for your husband.xx

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Jess February 21, 2011 at 5:37 pm

Thinking of you and yours Kate xxoo

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Sharon February 21, 2011 at 5:53 pm

Oh Kate, I’m so sorry to read this post of yours. I have had to make “that” call twice for my husband, and yes, it seems like an eternity for the ambulance to arrive. Fortunately for us both times it was not his heart, but I do feel for you and all that you are going through right now. I hope it all has a good outcome for your family. I will be thinking of you.

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Katrina February 21, 2011 at 5:55 pm

You r so strong. Thinking of u and ur family wishing ur husband good health and relaxation xx

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fazzbech February 21, 2011 at 7:01 pm

Oh gosh Kate, I can’t imagine how scary this must be for all of you! My heart goes out to you, and I’ll be thinking of you until your next update. Sending all my get better soon vibes to Si! xoxo

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Christie February 21, 2011 at 7:07 pm

Hugs and a ‘listening ear’ whenever you need distracting xx

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Jayne February 21, 2011 at 7:11 pm

OMG Kate how awful for you all. Thinking of you and sending healing, love & light.

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Claire Chadwick @ Scissors Paper Rock February 21, 2011 at 7:49 pm

Yikes! Sorry to hear Kate :(
Sending you lots of well-wishes & positive thoughts!
xo

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amandab February 21, 2011 at 8:55 pm

Can’t imagine what you are going through, and hope the kids are dealing with it all okay too and not making life too difficult to manage. Fingers crossed that they can work out what is wrong quickly and that it is something treatable. *hugs*

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ClaireyH February 21, 2011 at 9:22 pm

This had me holding my breath from the start.

I hope he is home soon and the reason is an easy one to fix.

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Tiff February 21, 2011 at 9:54 pm

Hugs. Hoping they find the cause and can treat him. Hoping you find some normality soon.

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Caroline B February 21, 2011 at 9:59 pm

OMG! thinking of you guys *hugs* hope they can give u answers soon hun.

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PlanningQueen February 21, 2011 at 10:01 pm

How scary Kate. I like to talk a lot (and a lot of nonsense) when I am worried or nervous. Hope they can find a way to manage his heart issue. Thinking of you.

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DebF February 21, 2011 at 11:05 pm

praying like crazy, hoping for a good outcome to this. absolutely surrounding you with love.

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Missy Boo February 22, 2011 at 2:47 am

Thinking of you and your family. Hoping it’s nothing to serious xxx

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CraftyMummy February 22, 2011 at 8:41 am

Hi Kate I don’t know whether you’re a praying kind of lady, but I am, so I am praying for you and your kids and especially your husband.

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Kelly B February 22, 2011 at 10:08 am

Such a frightening experience Kate. Would have rocked you seeing your strong man in such a desperate state. I’m feeling so sad for you. Thinking of you. xx

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monica peapod February 22, 2011 at 12:59 pm

kate! how terrifying! praying everything goes well and you don’t EVER have another such scare.

((hugs))

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Veggie Mama February 22, 2011 at 6:41 pm

You do what you have to. I’ll be thinking of you all xox

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Amandac February 22, 2011 at 7:02 pm

Kate I can’t imagine what you are all going through so I’m not sure what best to say other than sending all my positive healing thoughts to your hubby and hope like heck everything works out…. I know what you mean about making jokes when you don’t want to worry – its a great coping mechanism

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Inner Pickle February 22, 2011 at 10:51 pm

holy crapola Kate, I just read this now, hope he’s OK? Thinking of you… bloddy ‘ell.

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bek February 23, 2011 at 7:11 pm

Blergh :S How’s he doing now? How are you doing now? Hope you’re all okay :|

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Kylie February 25, 2011 at 11:08 pm

KAte – a thousand hugs to you all. Thinking of you and sending you whatever vibes you are needing. xoxoxox

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SquiggleMum February 25, 2011 at 11:13 pm

Kate – you and the kids have been in my prayers, and I am continuing to pray for answers and renewed health for your man. You are much loved online, and we are all here for you. Cath xx

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Meta February 26, 2011 at 12:05 pm

Hey sweetie

We have been thinking of you and wishing you well over the last week. Take care of you (as well as everyone else). Sending lots of hugs and good vibes so that everything works out ok.

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Del February 26, 2011 at 1:35 pm

Thinking of you all as you head home to find your ‘new normal’. I hope all goes well and you have no more terrifying ambulance calls and long waits in the hospital. Take care..

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keepcatebusy (Cate) March 2, 2011 at 9:59 pm

Oh my goodness – I had to follow back from your hospital play post to find out what happened – I’m so glad he’s okay :-)
xxxCate

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