image credit : Steve Snodgrass
I’m on a ‘buy nothing new for me’ kick at the moment.
It’s a really cool idea but I am not doing it because I want to save the planet or be more ethical. Those things are good, but I’m out to do anything lofty for the environment, or stand up for a cause, or inspire others, it’s more selfish than that.
I have committed to buy nothing new for myself for the next three months purely to give myself a break from myself.
The other day, as I pondered what to wear to an event, it dawned on me – this stuff stresses me.
I want to look good, or decent, or at the very least feel good, and often that leaves me with an intense desire to buy new clothes, especially if I have some event or place to go. I have this ridiculous notion that if I just find the right shirt or shoes, I will suddenly look stunning and feel more confident.
In reality, what most often happens is that I drag one or more kids to the shops and trudge around looking for the ‘one special thing’ I must have. Usually I can’t find anything I like, or anything that fits, or anything that I can afford, and I get cranky and depressed. Then I end up buying something that is not so great just because I feel that something is better than nothing, and then I regret it.
It’s not that I think I spend too much on clothes, or that I already have loads of clothes, or that I don’t wear some of my clothes till they just about fall apart. (does anyone else complain about the elastic going in your undies only to realise that you bought them while pregnant with your six year old?) It’s just that the whole ‘buying clothes’ gig makes me crazy.
It’s a waste of time, a waste of money and it goes against my total tight arse… ahem I mean thrifty nature. And most of all, it doesn’t make me happy.
So I’m taking a break from the frustration and the spending. Now when the insane voice pops into my head telling me to buy something new so I feel better about this or that, I don’t have to worry about the back and forth banter of the angel and the devil because I am just not.
For the next few months it is just not an option. I can wear something I already own, I can make do. I may not looking ‘stunning’ but I wouldn’t have if I’d bought something new to wear anyway… and it’s saving me money and time and a whole lot of frustration and self doubt.
Tell me I’m not alone…
Do you suffering from this kind of ridiculous desire and frustration?
Have you ever done a ‘buy nothing’ challenge?