Sitting here, staring down the barrel of new years, I’m thinking that I didn’t even come close to achieving this year’s theme.
Oh how I suck at balance.
There is nothing at all balanced about my life.
Balance was a dumb idea.
But it wasn’t all bad.
Looking back down my list of goals for 2009, I may have sucked at the balance one but it wasn’t all a total disaster.
The girls did have a wonderful year at kinder and continued to love ballet. They are not the most social kids in the world and didn’t make any really good friends at kinder but they were happy, very happy, which makes me happy.
The Small Boy did talk… eventually… and now we can’t shut him up, of course.
There have been no renovations. There were good reasons why 2009 wasn’t year for renovations. I don’t like those reasons, they make me cranky and disapointed, but they are good and right reasons. I have my fingers and toes crossed that this time next year the photo above of the back of our little house will look much, MUCH, different.
The garden has been good and bad this year. We grew winter veggies for the first time this year and managed the permanent part of the garden pretty well. The spring/summer garden is late and slow and a bit disappointing, but there will be produce, eventually… maybe.
I’ve already confessed the lack of balance on my part this year. I tried off and on but I don’t think my heart was really in it.
Same goes for growing my design business. For a while there I was right on track and doing great. Then things got crazy and I’ve let it go completely since getting pregnant, and I’m actually not sad about that at all. It’ll all come good again eventually.
I did redesign the blog and I actually still like it almost a year later (though I do want to tweak and redesign a few things here and there). There are still so many things I’d like to do with my blog, but there’s still time.
We all stayed pretty healthy this year – apart from a few head stitches, the odd lingering cold and me wrecking my back. No one went to hospital this year which is a huge bonus!
And as for the something magical happening….. well I think we got that covered with baby4.
So really, 2009 wasn’t a complete flop after all. Sure we’ve had to change our plans and re-negotiate ideas and adapt as needed, and at times that has frustrated the heck out of me and made me miserable and angry…. but it hasn’t been that bad, in actual fact it’s been quite good.
And one failed yearly theme isn’t going to stop me coming up with another one…. It’s good for me to have something to work for and even better for me to be able to look back and be happy with the even the un-perfect stuff.
Balance may not have been my best idea, but I’m coming up with an awesome one for 2010, so stay tuned!
I hope everyone has a safe and happy celebration tonight, whatever you do, and that 2010 is a fabulous year for us all!