I had this grand plan for 2009.
Do you all remember that post from way back when… Back at the end of last year when I declared 2009 to be The Year of Balance?
How’s that going Kate??
Well.. um… er.. ahem…. ok I confess, not so hot.
Every now and then I think I am doing good. There are days when I feel like I am almost on top of everything, washing in progress, meals cooked, parenting in the ways I’d like to, managing to complete some design work, even to play a little. There are days when I feel like I might just be getting the hang of this balance thing… but they are rare, very rare.
Mostly I feel like I am constantly juggling everything and not very successfully either.
I often feel like if I am winning in one area then I am loosing in ten others. If I am being the parent I want to be then I have a million design jobs that are left unfinished, and vice versa. If I get things done one day, the next four are a bust. It’s one step forward and three steps back.
And then there is that goal of fitting in some time for myself into the balance. I wanted to have a little me time this year.
My children are my life, as boring as that must seem to some. I love being a parent, I love being at home with my kids and I am happy to have that take precedence in my life. I don’t feel like I am loosing myself in being a mother or a ‘housewife’… in some ways I feel like I am finding myself. Though now that all three kids are older, and sleeping, and getting more and more independent I feel like there is some more space for me… and I begin to remember how good it felt to exercise, or go out on my own, or do something quietly, just me.
I feel like there is space in my mothering for me right now… I just need to make space in my life as well.
So how’s that going Kate??
Um… well… ahem… lets see…
I totally nailed number 18!!!
Well if you take the s off the end of the world ‘chicks’!
I’ve kinda managed number 35
35. Sing Karaoke
I went to a ‘singstar’ party a few weeks back… I even got to sing a few songs before I had to rush off to be at the birth of a gorgeous little girl. The encore event is this weekend and I am all revved up and ready to sing! Ok so it’s not real karaoke, but it’s close!
I was actually thinking I might do number 34 for the party…
34. Dye my hair red – well strawberry blonde maybe?
But my hair needs a cut so badly it is not worth wasting the dye on so much of it that will be cut off…. and yes… I am still working on number 26.
And here we are, staring down the barrel of May and balance is no where to be found.
You know I can juggle… three balls I can do with ease…. but juggling all the things I need to do, and all the things I want to do, not to mention the things I have to do… that is so much harder than three balls…