The girls and I had friends for dinner last night. Good Friends.
I am a terrible host – forgot to offer anyone tea or coffee (probably because I don’t drink either and really they should be grateful as I make the worst cuppas in the world!), served myself apple crumble before any of the other adults (mmmmmmmmm yum!) and generally spent the night bumming around and having a bloody good time!
I have never been one to have hundreds of close friends. At school I had a small group of friends but only one or two in my whole time at school who I really clicked with… a lot who, though I hate to admit it, I was friends with because it ‘seemed like a good idea at the time’. After highschool I ‘hung out’ with a group and we were all fairly close… but differences surfaced as we grew up and I drifted away from them. I still wonder how they are doing, but don’t feel I am part of that world anymore.
Now, as an adult and a parent (who would have thought being a parent would change your friendships!?!?) I have two very close friends – our ‘couple friends’ and my wierdest and wackiest best friend who left us last year for sunnier parts and who we all miss incredibly and one guy friend who is just… I dunno… he is just him and I love him for it! But I also have this circle of women….. oh wow… I am part of a ‘circle of women’!
I have never been very good with other females… especially as a teenager and young adult. Women and the competitive crap they often go on with annoys the heck out of me! Men are much easier to be friends with… they are simple creatures, much easier to know where you stand. So to suddenly be part of a group of females… amazing females… is all a bit strange for me.
Yet here I am. Smiling at the thought of the 4 women and 6 toddlers who graced our dinner table last night. Laughing as I remember some of our wild conversations and the site of all those little naked bodies in our tiny bath! It feels very good and very right to be part of this amazing group of women… like all of a sudden my life makes sense and this is where I am supposed to be, who I am supposed to be with and who I am. It feels like this amazing bunch are the last piece in a big puzzle and the finished picture is so bloody cool!
So thanks for having dinner with us last night everyone… Laura we missed you guys!