Okay?

Okay!
I hear that word sooooooooooooo so many times at the moment… it’s almost all Bizzy says these days. She even said it in her sleep last night! Si and I had a good giggle listening to her argue with herself; “okay?…. okay… okay?… OKAY!” I am not sure where she got it from… I take full responsability for Zoe’s ‘oh dears’ but I am sure I don’t say “okay” very often…. surely not?

Anyway for those of you who didn’t join in this was the LO I did for the chat ‘n scrap speed scrap I hosted at DSH tonight, and it finally broke the drought! I finally scrapped a LO and what’s more I love it! It’s all done using Holly Mc Craigs’ Sunroom Kit from the Digichick which was a super special price at the moment (I think it still is) and well worth the spend – the colours are just lovely!

Another remarkable thing about today… I realised this afternoon (after looking at an old calendar) that it is two years today since I first breastfed. Bizzy and I have been breastfeeding for two whole years, and Zoe and I, almost as long (give or take the many nursing strikes along the way)!!! I am pretty proud of that achievement, though I know breastfeeding a two year old makes me a freak to some people (wonder what breastfeeding two two year olds makes me?), to me it is a reflection of how bloody stubborn I am!

It has not been the least bit easy breastfeeding my girls but I was determined from the start that I’d do it. Since I couldn’t get the growing thing right, or the birthing thing I was determined to get the feeding thing right. It took a long time and lots of tears to get to that first feed and many many more since but I truly believe the battle has been worth it for us. I believe whole heartedly that breastfeeding is important and it has been worth the months of expressing and comp feeding and fortified EBM and NG tubes to get to this day.

Two years down the track the girls seem like they may be ready to wean some days, but others it is business as usual and for now, we are all ok with that. I never planned to be an ‘extended breastfeeder’. I never dreamed of breastfeeding a toddler before I was pregnant and yet here I am. Here I am – freaky hippy tree-hugging mother of identical twin girls, born at 29 weeks due to TTTS, two years of chronic reflux, two years of losing bloody nipple shields, two years of being a stubborn cow… and proud of it!

MooooOOOOooooooooOOOOOOOOoooooooooOOOOOOOooo!!!