Out of Exile

Oh thank goodness we are finally out of exile and back in the world of ‘other people’!

What with all the family stuff on our plate then the visit from the snot monster and mystery temp disease I feel like it’s been forever since we’ve seen anyone outside this tiny circle of close family. But today we went out! Out to a picnic no less with all our glorious playgroupers (oh how I have missed you guys!) and some other lovely Mum’s and kids from AB at Haye’s Paddock in Kew.

Awesome playground! Loads of cool stuff to do and entirely fenced with child proof fencing and a child proof gate which is a huge plus, Also it was really pram friendly – considering it is an ‘all access’ play area I guess you’d expect it to be wheel friendly but not many parks are.

The girls had a lovely play with their friends. Elijah dragged Izzy off as soon as we got there and I just love seeing those two hand in hand and the way ‘Lijah’ (as he is known in our house) looks after the girls is so special. He always makes sure they are doing the right thing, even if they don’t want to! And the whole way home all I heard about was ‘JACK ‘nmemma’ there is just something about that gorgeous boy that has my girls totally obsessed… can’t say I blame them though.

But above all else it was so nice to talk to another adult about stuff. You know important stuff like nappies and boobs and that sort of stuff! I can’t tell you how ‘out of the loop’ I’d been feeling from being away so long and how much I’ve missed just that general chatter that we tend to go on with!

There were loads of people there that I hadn’t met or don’t really know all that well and it was a bit of a bummer that I didn’t get to sit and chat. But then I expected that with the girls running amok and needing a hand held to go down a slide or someone to make sure they didn’t walk off the edge of the higher equipment as they tend to do!

I also got to take some quick photos of Laura’s bump today. I am in charge of putting together the invitation for her blessingway and I am so excited about it! I can’t wait to go either. Ask me 12 months ago to go to a ‘blessingway’ and I would have probably felt a bit uncomfortable about the whole thing. A bit unsure and a bit worried that it would all be ‘too close for comfort’ and be too much about things that bring up strong emotions. But now, I can’t wait to go.

Perhaps it is because it is Laura’s Blessingway and I have watched her bump grow over the weeks at playgroup and I just love her to pieces – she is so wise and caring and I feel like I have been able to watch not only her belly grow but also her mind as she learns so many new things with her doula course.

Perhaps it’s also because of the people who will be there… a group of women who I have shared so so much with these past 2 years. People who know parts of me no one else knows. People who inspire me and stretch me to do new things… like go to a blessingway and let myself enjoy it!

Perhaps it’s just because time is healing some of my guilt and disappointment about how the girls were born. Perhaps I am finally starting to let go of my jealousy and emotion about the whole thing.

Bugger if I know what it is but I am looking forward to it. I only hope I can create something worthy of how I feel about Laura and the event.