Yipee the wind has suddenly picked up here, the cool change is finally here and cooling us off.
Oh wow it is actually raining as I type and quite a bit of rain too! I just had to go and shut the window in the girls room as it was actually raining on Izzy!
Phew…. I was hoping it the breeze would pick up some. We’ve been out most of the day and the house has been shut up until around 10pm when we got home so it was still VERY warm inside and we just need a little breeze to blow through to make things more bearable. But I wasn’t expecting rain! I doubt it will rain for long or very much though… we could do with a decent big rain here. We definitely need some more water in our tanks and our dam is just a puddle now, so small I can step across it!
So I should be doing lots of other things but I am thinking I might just go to bed. I am a little unmotivated to scrap or design at the moment.
I guess I am feeling a little bit jaded…. I almost feel like I am at the edge of being almost good at some stuff but I just can’t break through some kind of invisible barrier. It’s like I have finally found my creative niche and something I really want to do, and for a while my style, creating and opportunities to develop were all growing together but now they have kind of hit a wall. I still feel my style growing and developing into something a little bit out of the ordinary (and for someone who has been average all her life that is a pretty big deal to me) and I am still bursting with ideas but the opportunities to get my ideas out there seem to have stagnated somewhat.
Really, I am happy where, I am doing what I am doing. I wouldn’t change that for the world. I guess I just feel like a new challenge is in order but the opportunity just hasn’t presented itself as yet.
My thoughts and ideas on where I want to go with this graphic design stuff are really all very haphazard. I’ve just been stumbling along, seeing if I was any good, and seeing where that would take me… and here I am… sort of lost again. So I guess I need to stop relying on others to give me opportunities to grow and start working on them myself. I just have to figure out how!
So the next step.
Do I make some plans and goals for myself?
I think a business plan thingy is a bit too involved for this little hippo, but maybe it is time to get my head around where I want to go with this and start making plans on how to get there. There are a lot of little loose ends which I should make time to sort out and some random ideas that I really should look at in more detail.
Since this is the year for positive thinking… Perhaps that is what I need, a clear plan of where I want to go and lots of positive thoughts on how to get there…… maybe…. agghhh I am so damn indecisive!