wish….

Fixed up this old layout just now (when I should have been doing other things!) and thought it was appropriate to my mood of late.

And I almost forgot to tell you all…. today is the day my girls should have been born two years ago. So they are now officially two years old, both in ‘actual age’ (their second birthday was in November) and in ‘corrected age’ which is much closer to their developmental age for most things.
It’s an odd day to remember.. nothing that special about it really. Except that for months it was my EDD and even though once we found out we were having twins we never really expected to make it to 40 weeks it was always the date marked on the calendar and what we counted down towards. Plus it is the magical date that would have made them ‘term babies’ so it’s the date which we counted back from to decide how prem they would be and how much we’d be risking if they were born at certain gestations. And it was that HUGE date looming when they were in hospital, it was a very big deal to me that they came home before their EDD (and they did, 6 days before in actual fact!).

Last year it was very much in my mind, but this year time is dulling those emotions a little more and I remember the day, but the disappointment and guilt isn’t so strong this year. But I guess I still wanted to share it with someone.

So at the risk of setting a precedence of making two blog posts in one day… here it is