What the heck is wrong with me!
Ok sure, sometimes I struggle to fall asleep, but once I’m out I’m out, till someone, or something, wakes me up.
Not this week.
This week has been more like this…
Sometime in the middle of the night.
Why am I awake?
Do I dare open my eyes and look at the clock. I can’t, I shouldn’t…
Why am I awake??
I’m hot, I need to get these covers off me.
Actually no, I’m cold.
No, I really am hot.
Two arms and two legs out – too cold.
Two arms and one leg out – ok that’s better.
Insane, paranoid thoughts run through my head regarding the safety of my children.
They are fine, you are being crazy, they are fine.
Of course they are fine, there is no reason to think otherwise.
All the kids are fine.
I sneak quietly into the kids rooms to check that they actually are fine.
They are all perfectly fine, but as I attempt to sneak out of the boys room I crash into the castle of magformers in the middle of the floor and wake up my smallest child.
He doesn’t seem at all confused as to why I’m sneaking around his room in the middle of the night, but he does ask to get in bed with me.
I let him.
I lie next to my blonde headed boy, watching his cherubic face as he sleeps. He is so peaceful, so beautiful, still my baby boy, surely this feeling of love and contentment will have me drifting off to sleep in no time.
The cherubic child is snoring and pushing his feet with those sharp little toe nails on to my side of the bed.
The cherubic child is breathing in my face!
I can not sleep with someone breathing in my face.
I contemplate getting up for the day.
I look at the clock and decide only insane people start the day at 4:30am.
Listening to a podcast, because I always fall asleep before the podcasts finish and never find out what happens in the end!
This will work.
Well that was an interesting podcast.
I start calculating how much sleep I have had tonight, and how much I could get if I go to sleep right now.
I am doomed.
You know what will happen… I bet I fall asleep in the next 15 minutes, half an hour before I have to get up for the day.
I wish I had placed that bet for a million dollars – then I could pay someone to do all the stuff I’m going to be too tired to do today!
I need your best advice for night waking adults!
Do you suffer from insomnia? How do you get back to sleep when you wake in the middle of the night with your head full of crazy stuff?