“Oh you are renovating… still” She said as she arrived, unannounced.
She hadn’t gotten any further than our front steps, but the drop-saw, the pile of wood, the bucket of electrical wires and the cans of paint that ‘decorate’ our front veranda gave us away.
“Yes, we are renovating… still.”
“When will it be finished?” She asked casually as we walked down the hall that is in the process of being plastered, past the shell of a room that will one day be a bathroom, and the laundry that is yet to get a door.
“I doubt it will ever be really finished” I say with a laugh that sounds a little too forced.
Sometimes I am kind of embarrassed to admit that we have been renovating our house for more than three years now. Yep, three years and it is far from done, and far from perfect. I am embarrassed to have people visit and I don’t mention it here on the blog any more either.
Sometimes I feel so held back by the fact that we are not done renovating. I find myself thinking things like ‘when I have laundry there won’t be piles of washing all over our house’ or ‘when we have a second bathroom bedtime won’t be so insane’… and I wish my days away, frustrated that our renovations are not done yet.
Sometimes I dream of the day when it will be done. Of the day when I will finally have a bedroom door, and a bath. Oh how long for a long hot bath.
Sometimes I want to tear my hair out that it has taken so long… why has it taken so bloody long!?!?
And then I remember.
It has taken so long because we built this…. we are building this.
Not some swanky architect and some expensive builder with a team of people who do this for a living… but us.
Us who still have to earn a living with one of us working 12 hour rotating shifts. Us who have four kids who are growing up so fast that we need to take time not to miss it. Us who have to juggle bills and budgets. Us who have gardens to plant, and friends to visit, and family to celebrate with. Us who have a life apart from renovating houses.
And I am so glad we have a life apart from renovating our house.
Because life is too short to spend it trying to make our house ‘perfect’. Besides, we are not a ‘perfect house’ kinda family. We are a, still want to spend time with the kids, lets not get ourselves up to our eye balls in debt, come on lets go do something fun instead, live in a half finished house kinda family… and that is the way I like it, mostly.
Have you ever renovated a house?
Make me feel better about my never ending renovations – tell me your stories!